A Promise...

Today is the beginning of the beginning and there is no means to an end. I have been at this for a few months now...I need to do away with 'free' days- they are stupid and illogical...if I am going to do this- it must be a WAY of life. Treats are okay in small portions...but my athletic body needs to understand that I am in control these days. End of story. Here is to the new year, the new me, and the never ending story of conscious decisions, choices, and life after chub.

I know how hard it is to stick with it...I read somewhere that motivation (on average) only lasts up to 17 days. WOW! Most women only hit the gym for 30 days...and then Poof! Just as quickly as it began it ends. I don't want this to happen...finish what we start, reach our goals (or at least see progress and keep at it!) I know all of these things and it is still hard...knowledge is supposed to be power! Where is that power?!?! Why cant I get past the parts that make it difficult when I know that the road blocks are coming, the agony is there? I guess that is the part that makes it all worth it at the end of the day, or when we finally reach the damn goal. We can scream at the top of our lungs, "I DID IT!" Then comes the next step...staying there.
I will deal with that bridge when I get there...and I say 'when' and I mean it. I will slowly but surely make it to the magical number that I have in my head. It isn't unreasonable....its just there. Its the mythical "goal weight."
The journey continues.....................................

Not a New Years Resolution

I refuse to make a New Years Resolution this year...partly because it is my birthday and I want to enjoy it!! And partly because I try to workout everyday and I know being healthy is an uphill battle. Its a daily, constant, conscious choice to eat this instead of that and get into the car and go to the gym instead of watching my beloved HGTV or some other show that I have previously recorded. I have come to the conclusion that I am not going to go to bed on the Eve of 2008 and wake up miraculously twenty lbs. lighter, although I wish I would!
Instead I would like to have the faith, motivation, and willpower to be healthy throughout the New Year...I challenge myself to stay connected to the energy that it takes to propel myself toward my goals. This will be easier said than done...and I guess I have set some sort of goal (or resolution, if you must) for myself in the year of 2008, however I am being upfront with myself about the fact that it will not happen overnight, I will extremely dislike it at times, I might resent setting this goal, but inevitably I will feel better and accomplished once my workouts are done for the day and I eventually fit into my skinny jeans (which may still be bigger than someone else's skinny jeans.) But they are still smaller than the ones I wear now!
All of that being said, its not all about my weight- I have other goals for the new year...

• Give blood on a regular basis (I am O+ which makes me very special!)
• Take the kickboxing class and stop just talking about it.
• Sign up, commit to, and run in a charity event.
• Learn a new language (French, preferably) and brush up on my Spanish!
• Find a volunteer project that I truly care about and give as much time to it as I possibly can.
• Finish my first full year of Graduate School with a 4.0
• Build a stable, healthy relationship with my mother.
• Forget about stress/control for once, and roll with the times.

So here is to 2008, being another year older, and sticking to the goals that we all set for ourselves, whatever they may be. Cheers!